Thursday, May 28, 2009

Master the language is vital!!!

MASTERING THE LANGUAGE IS VITAL!!!

Of course english, the global language which is used in worldwide as a medium to communicate...sounds like i'm going to write nothing, except for rubbish. hurm...is that so??

i'm going to pursue my study (medic) in overseas. insyaAllah if it is destined for me by God. but the thing that strangle the string in my head is just that my skill in english command. do i already good?? do i have high proficiency in that language?? can i manage myself in the foreign country since i really don't have the confidence to communicate with the people in there? no need to say much, i even afraid to speak with the Malaysians who are prone to speak in English. what the heck is going on!

DO I MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION?

Later, can i really success when i'm studying abroad?? really which means, absorbs everything, the knowledges related to medical studies and of course the skills, the practical one. now, i start to think about my future. to look forward, what happen to me 8 years from now. Oh my God! i really hope i can face through all the obstacles in my life...

Since that, i know that no one can help me except for myself. i can't blame my parents for not growing me with the skills of english since i was a kid. it can't be the issue, the excuse and the matter to think about too much. i know someday i'll be able to master this language even better than mdm lim ( my english set teacher). i still remember what she said that mastering the language is not the thing that can be done in a few days even months. i know and somehow i believe it even i'm not the type who are easily accepting other people's views. Standing with the fact that Rome doesn't built in one day, i learn everything will take a long journey, but the revenue is something that can be proud of even after 100 years.

To be frank, i still afraid whether i can really carry myself in the IB and...when i manage to study abroad. God please help me and i'll always strive for the best. Pray and struggle that's the only thing that i can do.

Note:why i'm writing my post in English?? hurm...later i will know, i guess.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

MOVING>>>SUCCESS

Congrats to all my friends who got the scholarships...

Believes that we are in the right path...

Towards in what we hope to be...

The hope of our family...

And of course this is not the time we sholud turn back...

There's no turning back in life...

In life for someone who seeking for success...

There's nothing impossible...

Because everything is possible...

For the one who are really believe on it...

~SUCCESS IS THE ONE WHICH EVERYONE LOOKING FOR~

~BUT DID EVERYONE WORK FOR IT~

~STOP TALKING NONSENSE AND JUST STRIVE FOR THE BEST~

~BECAUSE WHAT WE PLANT TODAY, WE WILL HARVEST LATER~

~JUST BELIVE IN IT...INSYAALLAH~

All the best to everyone...
Sincerely from me...

Friday, May 15, 2009

Realiti kini...sume psl scholarship!

Arini pagi2 aku dpt call ckp rslt mara dah klua. Smbil tu kwn ak yg call ni sdih sbb x dpt coz yg die dan family harapkan. X pyh la ckp sape nnti dikata menjatuhkan maruah org plak. Tapi aku mmg kesian kat die sbb the truth is aku nak die dpt same ngan aku. Tapi dah x de rezeki nak buat camne. Hmm...Pastu berduyun la org anta msg tanye ak dpt x mara. Sume aku x reply. Bkn ape x de kredit n aku malas nak kecoh ape yg aku dpt kat org lebih2 lagi ade org ckp tu baru draf je.

Realitinye...aku dpt mara, aku dpt um, dua2 offer medic. Tapi org mesti argue asal ko x nak gi mara tu plak, pegi overc org respek nnti n bla..bla..bla. Pastu abg aku dgn selambanye mencelah time aku tgh ckp ngan ayah aku, "Pegila mara tu, x kan nak jumpe ko plak nnti kat um" Ptt ke die ckp camtu. Tapi aku x kisah sbb aku phm ape die nak smpikan kat aku. Die cume nak aku dpt yg terbaik.

Spt biase mak aku mendesak aku dgn sehalusnya srh aku gi. Ayah aku srh pkir mane yg ble carry tapi die ade ckp die pecaye yg aku ble. Bile direnungkan aku ni truk btul. X bersyukur. Dah dpt peluang yg ade org lain x dpt nak sia2kan plak. Inilah realitinya...dunia sekarang...dan aku... Ape aku buat ni?? Org lain smgt, hepi dpt offer. Aku? Org lain smpi nangis, sedih x dpt. Aku??

MUHAMMAD KHAIRUL FADLI B ABD GHAFFAR PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!!

Pkirkan family, hope dorg nk tgk sorg doc dilahirkan dlm family.

Pkirkan kwn2 yg xdpt, tgk cmne dorg still ade smgt nak ucapkan tahniah.

For the last part, choose wisely what u want to be,

What u you REALLY want to be and to achieve in this life....


No matter what aku akan accept offer mara ni...insyaAllah aku akn bejaye wlpn aku still x yakin ngan diri aku...who cares...it's going to be the same like mase nak msk saser dulu...all will be success if they want to be...pray and effort are the keys for the one who seek it...

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Something unusual...

Arini rase cam x sihat je. Mgkin sbb aku tido lmbt utk 0n9 smpi 2 ke 3 pagi dan sbb itu juga aku tlh bgn lmbt. Tapi hari ni mcm lain mcm je. Besenye slma ni aku buat camtu x de pape pon. Hmm...jadi moody plak.

Arini 7 Mei 2009. Nape aku jadi camni?? Hmm..rase kosong, boring apetah lagi. Yg plik sedih pon ade. Aku tibe2 hilang selera nak mkn. Rase cam nak muntah kalo mkn dan aku pon x breakfast. 11 May ni tarikh msk matriks. Kwn2 aku pon ade yg msk ctu dan aku tau ade antara drg ni x nak pon msk ctu tapi dah x de pilihan. Kesian plak kat dorg. Hmm...aku rase bile dorg dah msk nnti aku rase cam alone je mksd aku cam sunyi je. X tau la nape. Mgkin lps ni jrg cntct ataupun x kan cntct lgsg pon. Sedih rasenye sbb aku pon jenis yg kwn ngan org tu smpi bile2 bkn hanye kat skola je. Abis skola tu blah je buat dek ngan hal msg2. Itu bkn aku dan itulah mslh aku.


25 Mei nnti aku plak akn daftar kat UM. Hmm...rase cam mase ni berlalu singkat dan aku pon mls nak msk awal2 sgt. Mgkin ade org yg eager nak smbg study blk ngan cpt tapi itu bkn aku. Mgkin juga sbb aku tau nak study medik bkn benda yg mudah dan benda tu sume abg aku dah cite. Subjek yg rumit dan syllabus yg terlalu byk, nak score itu la inila dan hmm...itu baru pre-clinical study. Blum lagi clinical study yg 10 kali ganda beban die. Tapi aku x ble nak cerewet sgt sbb nak jadi doc tu cite2 aku since dari kecik. Tapi to be honest skrg aku x kemaruk sgt pon nak jadi doc tu apetah lagi aku sbnrnye still blur ngan ape yg aku nak capai dlm hidup aku ni.


Dlm beberapa hari ni jgk adela org call aku,ym aku dan aku pon ade call org dan semestinya topik utama upu dan matriks. Soalan yg same je "Ko dpt mane upu? Ko pegi x? Cmne ngan biasiswa luar negara tu?" Ade jgk yg tanye pandangan, "Ko rase kalo ko jadi aku ko nak pegi mane? Matriks ke atau upu yg offer diploma je?" Mule2 ssh nak jwb benda ni. Tapi bagi aku due2 pon ble pegi. Dan aku pon jwb la, pegila matriks kalo ko rase ble carry(maksudnye dpt 4 flat) itupon kalo x nak dilelong ngan coz yg ko x minat. Kalo upu tu pegila kalo ko rase sggp blaja utk satu tmph yg lame itupon kalo nak smbg degree or master ataupun phD. Itu je.

Pastu ade jgk yg tanye kalo ko dpt piln tu ko nak pegi ke or nak stay upu? Itu lagila ssh nak jwb sbb aku pon msh x de jwpn utk itu. Sbnrnye aku ni x de la nak sgt study oversea tu. Aku tau kalo gi oversea nmpkla gah, nmpk cam up ckit. Pastu tmbhla advantage blaja culture org n bla..bla..bla. Bagi aku x kisah kalo x dpt pon gi oversea tu sbb aku hanye nak blaja dlm course yg btul yg bole jadikan cite2 aku dulu tu kenyataan. Sbnrnye itu yg parents aku hope sgt nak tgk anak die jadi doc dan ltk high expectation yg kdg2 merimaskan aku sejujurnye. X ble nak salahkan dorg gak sbb aku tau dorg hanye nak tgk ank2 die bejaya, hidup sng. Parents mane nak tgk anak die susah.

Jadi aku pon decide kalo aku dah cmfrtable ngan upu tu nnti mgkin aku trus stay ctu je. Tapi aku tau jgk yg parents aku akan cube desak aku terima piln tu kalo dpt. Hmm...mcm dilema plak. X pe aku terima je. Dlm benda ni aku teringat plak yg mak aku penah ckp yg blaja mane2 pon ble dpt A mase aku x nak msk saser dulu. Tapi cube fkir org nnti pndg mane str8 A's lepasan skola harian ke lpsn SBP. Mne yg dpt main priority dulu. Dan sbb itulah aku pon msk saser yg mmg aku x nak msk pon. Pastu, pljr saser dilabelkan x sesuai(mgkin x setaraf kot) utk msk matriks tu. Itula realitinye bile dah msk skola yg top. Hmm..kesian kalo pkirkan nasib bdk saser yg msk matriks tu. Ape dorg rasekan. Overall aku nak je back up bdk2 saser yg msk matriks tu dan aku nak ckp blaja mane2 pon ble bjaye. Dan igt jgk x sume bdk matriks tu gagal dan x sume bdk yg msk upu tu sukses. Sume ni bergantung pada diri sendiri kalo nak ubah nasib dan pemikiran org kat kite. Yg penting kalo ade rezeki x ke mana dan jgn lupe jgk yg kite hanye merancang tapi yang menentukan sume ada di atas sana yang sedang memerhatikan kita.

P/s: kpd ex-skk, ex-kjg high skool mahupun ex-saserians aku hanye ble ckp gud luck dan doakan korg berjaye dunia dan akhirat...Aminn....

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Hang Out Again!!

Last saturday, boni,aku dan afzyim klua lagi utk enjoy sblm start study session blk. Kali ni nas x de sbb die ade kat umah die di johor tu. Hmm..x pe la lain kali ade chance kite klua same2 ye nas. Boni ckp kalo nas xde malapetaka x kan belaku. Mcm btul plak. Haha. Semuanye bermula bile boni ajk tgk wayang and aku pon ok je memandangkan x de ape2 aktiviti. Plan naik ktm dan gather kat stesen serdang kol 10 lebih. Aku pon tggu la tapi last2 afzyim call srh aku naik ktm trus gi mid. Dorg naik keta dan tggu kat sane. Adui tension aku tggu lame2 kat ktm tu smpi x salah aku dah terlepas 3 tren. X pe x kisah pon. Time tggu tu aku tgk rmi btul warga asing yg menjadi pengguna ktm yg pantas tu. Hmm..aku pon berfikir dorg ni PATI ke pelancong. Pelancong kot sbb kerajaan kan dah anta lambakan PATI kat negara dorg blk. Btul ke mcm tipu je sbb sume nmpk selekeh. Rase mcm aku ni kat oversea in terms kat negara sendiri tapi bersama warga asing yg "baik2" belaka. Mane pegi pemuda-pemudi negara yg menjadi kebanggaan tu. Hmm...aku tau kat mane dorg berade tapi nnti aku tulis.

Okla back to the story, aku pon naik la ktm turun kat mid. Pastu afzyim call die tggu kat entrance north court. Ape2 je la sbb aku ni bknlah seorg pkr yg ble igt semua section dlm mid yg besar gedabak tu. Aku pun main bantai je jln dan akhirnye jmpe boni dan afzyim. Mission accomplished. Haha. Tuka plan lagi pegi times square plak sbb afzyim nak main kat cosmo world. Aku pon setuju je sbb aku x penah main kat ctu. Ops...lupe kali ni boni sekali lagi menjadi the "cool" driver. Haha klaka tgk die ni drive. Bajet x panik je memanjang. Afzyim spt biasa co-pilot kepada boni. Aku menjadi penumpang. Itu je yg aku mmpu buat.

Akhirnye smpila kat t.sq tu. Disebabkan dah agk lewat trus pegi cosmo world tu dan kena bayar 30 something sorg. Bagi aku berbaloi sbb permainan die pon bes especially bumper car dgn roller coaster dan ble klua msk sesuka hati. Then, gi mkn mcd dan afzyim menjadi x puas hati sbb isu bun burger. Isu x de ais skali kot. Mmg truk btul mcd kat ctu. Then, pegila jln2 kat tempat bowling dan aku pon confuse, aku rase ni disko kot. Hmm kat cni la anak2 muda harapan bangsa membuat aktiviti berfaedah dorg. Bgs2. Mmg m'sia akan "mencapai" wawasan 2020 atau mgkin lebih awal kot.

Then, pegi blk cosmo world tu dan benda yg plg byk kitorg main bumper car "3 minit". Time smyg jumpe la sadiq. Nmpk cam sorg tapi aku x rase camtu. Phm2 je la ye. It's natural. Pastu gi low yat sbb boni nak cari pendrive. Akhirnye x bli sbb x de yg murah sgt pon. Afzyim plk survey laptop dan aku pon nak tgk jgk harga ps3. Tapi malas nak tanye. Lantak la. Pastu gi mane ye. Hmm...balik kot. Lupe plak afzyim ajar aku tntg tekstur aiskrim. Die ckp baskin 31 robbins tu aiskrim die x kasar. Ye ke? Lidah aku bermasalah kot sbb aku rase x de beza pon. Aku ni x de jiwa seni btul.

Lastly, boni ngan baik hatinya anta aku smpi kat kjg. Thanx to boni and afzyim jgk sbb korg aku x pyh nak tggu dan naik ktm kebanggaan seluruh rakyat m'sia tu. Nnti aku blanja la korg ye kalo klua same2 lagi. InsyaAllah. Spt biasa, pengajaran yg aku dpt ialah jgn mengalah sblm mencuba. Mcm x sedap je. Haha. Tapi sbb ape aku ckp camtu ialah kerana boni dan afzyim yg mendesak aku supaya naik jgk roller coaster yg menakutkan bagi aku pade mulenya saje dgn isu nak membaloikan harga tiket. Akhirnye aku berjaye naik roller coaster tu dua kali tau. Poyo je aku ni tapi aku mmg bangga. Tapi ttp kena down ngan afzyim sbb x naik ade satu benda yg pusing2 mcm bandul jam tu. X pe la aku lebih sygkan nywa aku drpd digadaikan utk naik benda tu yg membuatkan boni muntah2. Sbnarnye afzyim pon same tapi die pandai cover line. Aku?? Spt biase gelak je la tgk gelagat dorg ni. Haha. At the end, acara tgk wayang pon burn. Itu je.