Monday, May 24, 2010

~When it comes to made a decision~

Alhamdulillah exam sem 2 baru je lepas dan ak ape lagi melaghakan diri kat umah je la. Online, main game, tgk movie dll (benda2 yg ak x ble buat time exm mode). Seriously, kinda feeling mcm dah abis IB trus. Haha.


Hmm...decision?? Bile dah meningkat dewasa cam ni, you need to make a lot of decisions mainly about yourself on your own. For example, your ambition, your future career. Doctor, Chem engineer and biotechnologist, sume merupakan cita2 yg ak pkirkan mase dulu2. At last doktor yg melekat. Qada' dan qadar.

SPM pun tamat dan slps mendapat result bercambah2 scholarship yg ak apply atas dasar nak je dpt scholarship like my brother. And tanpa memikir pjg ak pun trt apply scholarship yg x berkaitan pun dgn cita2 ak tadi (TNB, Bank Negara). Hah rase cam sengal je bile igtkan blk. Then lastly yg dpt PETRONAS (Chem Eng, UTP) ngan MARA (IB Diploma Programme-Medic, KMB). Tambah plak choice ASASI Sains Hayat kat UM, tmpt abg ak mrgkul kejayaannya meneruskan pengajian dlm bidang medic yg strictly nak 4 flat (Bknnye nak riak or what ,cume alasan ni la abg ak guna nak lobi ak spya blja kat cni). Here comes the part yg memerlukan ak membuat kptsn sekali lagi. Adui pening. Pikir punye pkir, ak memutuskan utk mengambil scholarship MARA tu. Sbbnya parents ak pun insist nak tgk anak die blaja kat oversea sbb abg ak dulu ade la keralatan sedikit. Mskla la ak ke KMB, IB World School!!! (3rd world facilities-bersyukur je). Qada' dan qadar.

Kat KMB, msk sem 2 kena pilih subjek plak. MATHEMATICS HL (very da challenging) or SL (yg x byk beza sgt dgn HL pun). Fuh letih kepala otak ni memikirkan nak pilih mane satu. Dipendekkan cite, dgn menggunakan segala kudrat mentarbiyahkan org supaya amik Math HL, ak plak akhirnya memilih Math SL. Tertemplak diri sendiri plak (kate atong kpd aku).Whatever la. Mgkin ini yg t'baik dan takdir Allah sbb kalo ak amik Math HL aritu ak kena tukar klas which i don't want. Qada' dan qadar.

Pastu benda yg plg ak risau and to be honest x suke iaitu EE (Extended Essay). This is the most challenging part. Ak mmg panik gile bile nak choose whether biologos or malay. Decision again and again. Arghh!!!! Lastly,ak letakkan first choice for malay, sbb rmi skor A for this subject and for biologos average c. Dgn kepanikan thp giga, ak cube mnyiapkan proposal for interview yg ak siapkan sehari sblm dateline. Credit to atong 4 helping me:). Alhamdulillah ak lps interview and i'm being selected. Igtkan lega dah la, tgk2 ckgu2 for this subject cerewet gile and sentiasa ugut nak terminate mane2 pelajar yg x ikut flow planning yg dorg sendiri dah ttpkan. Cthnya, first draft yg spttnya anta bln september kena anta bln julai. This really makes me stressful. Qada' dan qadar. (X lupe kena byr RM150 utk Kem Sastera special for those yg buat EE subjek ni kat Tiara Beach Resort- This one is cool!)

Lastly, smpila ke hari ini, tmt sem 2 dan duk umah menghabiskan cuti 3 minggu. Ade je keja belambak. IB mane pnh tgk org bersenang-lenang. Yg ni ak anggap sbg challenge utk diri ak dan sbg platform melatih diri aku utk bersedia utk hari yg mendatang. But that's not the problem. Problem die kena buat decision la. No comment dah. Kali ni kela choose btul2 country mane yg nak dan target universiti. Ni sume gara2 nak mengoptimumkan placement utk pelajar2 batch 'KITA' yg gedabaknya ramai compared to last batch. Qada' dan qadar. (Still thinking at the moment)

Ape2 pun inilah realiti kehidupan aku dan ak percaya semua manusia lain jgk. Like a proverb said, "The ball is in your court", choose the very best in your life and jgn lupe lastly kena la berserah kepada Yang Maha Berkuasa.