Take a Deep Breath

Since hols sem 3 ni, rajin bebenor plak aku mengupdate blog ye. Of course filling my time dgn benda2 yg susah nak buat bile dah start klas blk nnti. (Ada reason lain jgk) Hmm...post kali ni just to show some activity that i've done during this school (oh no! college) break.

1. In honour as one of the participants of The Biggest Loser edisi m09h, aku telah mengambil initiative utk melakukan aktiviti yg akan bermandikan peluh. (Tanpa pertolongan Jillian pun) Aktivitinya MEMANJAT BUKIT BROGA!!!! Lama jgkla dah x pjt and since badan ak dah naik lemak ni, (macam haram!) sempot memanjang mcm nak dikuburkan kat atas bukit tu je.

P/s:Mujur pemandangan kat atas bukit tu indah menenangkan jiwa...Subhanallah

2. Dah penat mendaki, berjakuzi la plak di Sungai Tekala. Wah lama rasanya dah x dtg sini. Makin cantik plak. (Tapi nak msk kena bayar) Watever la. Aktiviti ni hanya disertai oleh my siblings jueh since pergi time hari bekerja (my parents pun kena la keja)

Eldest son: My brother, Dr Suai'di

2nd son: Tuan punya blog

Youngest daughter: My lovely Puteri Aisyah

What Are You Doing?

Currently working very hard to finish up my:

EXTENDED ESSAY

LANGIT PETANG

p/s: To the horror is that now i am horribly addicted to FB games!!!

PLUS WITH THE OUTSTANDING SERIES (BETTER THAN TWILIGHT)

XOXO VAMPIRE DIARIES

It's Good To Know People =)

Sekian lama meninggalkan blog, it's time to mencoret kembali!!! (walaupun tangan dah rusty=P)

Tengah duduk time cuti yang rasa lama bile bosan dan rasa skjp bile fikir byk keja x buat lagi ni, tibe2 teringat kisah2 silam lampau aku dulu. Semuanya bermula bile ak dengan tetibe dengar IKIM kat hp pada pukul 1 pagi (x ble nak lelap mata) slot Islam Itu Indah...

Masa tu tetamu jemputannya Prof. Muhaya (yg skrg ni ada rancangan sendiri Dari Mata ke Hati kat astro Prima) bercakap pasal etika kerja. Ak tertarik mendengar isi2 hujahnya yg pada ak lebih kepada mengecapi nikmat kebahagiaan dalam hidup ni. Antaranya, kita buat satu2 benda tu biarlah ianya ibarat kita melabur untuk diri kita sendiri. Dengan kata lain jgnlah selalu nak berkira dgn org bila buat kerja.

For a moment, ak rasa sedih...sbb ak tau ak possess sikap tu. Kbnyakannya ak berkira dgn kwn2. X ckp depan ak ckp belakang. Makan daging saudara sendiri. Ni sume bila ak rasa dipergunakan oleh diorang time ada keja2 yg remeh-temeh bg dorg sendiri. Tapi ak x penah sedar apa yang ak buat nnti dpt senangkan hati rmi org. Kawan2 ak sendiri plak.

Bile ckp pasal kawan, ak teringat rmi yg ckp ak ni berlagak la, buat muka serius la n etc. Ada satu kali tu ada sorg kwn ak cite yg ada org takut nak ckp ngan ak. Sbbnya orang tu rasa ak buat muka macam x suka kat dia. Time ak dgr tu tersentap la jgk. Tapi nak buat mcm mana mulut org x ble nak tutup. Kdg2 tu rasa penat nak pikir. These are just my problems:

1. x reti nak tegur org bile jmpe

2. susah nak jadi friendly dgn org yg x kenal sgt

3. memilih kwn (yg rasa ble masuk)

4. selalu terbuat muka tension/serius

For all these things, it takes time to fix and to clarify to everyone. Biarlah masa yg menentukan...

Before that, it's good to have such respectful and cheerful friends/classmates. Hope our relationships will last forever...If Allah will

Syawal ke-19

...Salam diundang ke bulan Syawal bulan kemenangan...

...Lambaian Ramadhan berlalu pergi...

Sekian lama jugak rasanya tidak menulis post utk blog ni. Mgkn x de banyak benda yg nak dikongsi wlpn pelbagai perkara rasanya diri ini menempuhinya. Sedar x sedar umur aku dah cecah 19 thn. Dah makin tua rasanya pulak :P

Penah satu ketika time kat kolej kena birthday bash dgn classmates yg mmg rase nak kena maki je. Kena tuang air buah hina ape tah yg DIPERAM SELAMA 3 BULAN!!!! Habis satu badan busuk tahap longkang sampai termuntah 2 kali kot. Dah la kena time tu pki baju melayu lagila aku angin. Semuanya berlaku pada 30 Ogos jam 10.30 mlm di lorong midaq. Even blum kul 12 lagipon. Mmg sengal plus malu bebudak perempuan yg cbuk nak tgk. Jwpnnya termencarut la ak kat sume even Asif yg jijik tipu ak. After all, esoknya dorg sume minx maaf kat ak dan ak pon maafkanlah sempena bulan Ramadhan bulan maghfirah ni kan.

"X pe itu sume kenangan. Nnti ko da tua ko msti gelak punye bile ingat sume tu blk." kata2 sorg makhluk Allah ni sewaktu iftar kelas di food court esoknya.

~Tulah salah satu peristiwa penting yg berlaku kat ak time bulan Ramadhan~

Raya kali ni kat Sg. Petani, Kedah (kg belah emak). Tapi sedihnya ayah ak x dpt join sbb terpaksa menjalankan tugasnya sewaktu takbir yg akan bergema nnti. Maka dgn itu, sesi bermaafan bermula terlebih awal iaitu 2 hari sebelum raya. Kali ni x tau rase cam nak nangis tu lain mcm yet still ble thn. Bertambah sedih kena drive gilir2 ngan abg ak dari Pajam smpi la ke Kedah 2. Penat+ngantuk gile memandu di bulan Ramadhan nih.

Smpi awal sbb ak speed lah. Cousin ak ckp tggu je surat saman smpi. Ah mls nak pkir janji smpikan. Pas2 uruskan pasport ak, buat ic baru n bla..bla..bla.

Tibalah Syawal hari yg dinantikan. Tapi raya kali ni rase cam x bes sgt. Tgk cousin2 ngan adik ak gembira sgt main bunga api la, gi jln2 raya umah org la, teringat saat time kecik2 dulu. Btul kot ade org ckp bile makin besar nikmat raya x de la sehebat time budak2 dulu. Benci btul. Tapi of course la bile mkn besar duit raya makin bertambah ok. X kan la org nak bagi 5o sen cam dulu2. Plg koman pun 5 ringgit punye. Hahaha.

Aktiviti time hari raya, hmm...x de la byk sgt just lawat kubur arwah datuk, gi tgk wayang cite 4 madu yg haprak tu and raya umah relatives je. Kali ni ak kena jadi driver je memanjang. Dulu byk gak la aktivitinye main bowling la n so on. Ye la skrg ni mkn rmi plak family ak yg sakit2. Tu je la kisah di hari raya.

Paling hina sekali, taun ni sume families which include my family lupe bwk blk kamera. Camne ble jadi camni nih. Gamba raya pun seciput je itu pun gune hp je. Adui sedihnye x de kenangan. Pape pon bulan 12 ni ade family gathering dan kali ni menyerang ke pantai timur la plak. Haha my suggestion kot. Tepat instinct ak and i'm makingthe right decision for not joining my frenz to Korea. Family always comes first ok. So Terengganu wait juz wait for my arrival :D

Dan di kesempatan ini, ak ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin kpd sume yg mengenali diri ini. (X kisah la wlpn hari ni dah raya ke-7 dah)

Segenap detik...

Masa berlalu begitu pantas. Terlalu pantas hinggakan aku terpinga melihat perubahan dunia ini. Hinggakan, baru sedar yg kitaran masa kembali membuat pusingannya.

Ramadhan...

Mngkinkah ini kali terakhir aku menemui...

Menyingkap kembali memori segenap setahun yang lalu...

Apakah aku sudah berubah???

Atau masih insan yang sama???

Kadangkala ujian datang bertubi-tubi...

Sampai terasa tertusuk hingga ke sanubari...

Apakah aku sudah berubah???

Atau masih insan yang sama???

Mungkin orang tidak mengerti...

Mahupun sekelumit memahami...

Tak semua kejayaan itu indah...

Apabila diri ini terasa bebannya...

Apakah ini satu anugerah...

Satu kurniaan...

Atau satu malapetaka...

Yang tersirat mengundang bencana...

Ya Allah...

Aku sedar....

Aku bukanlah hambamu yang mulia...

Yang rapi menjaga tanggungjawabnya...

Namun aku sedar...

Bahawa aku adalah lemah...

Dan sentiasa memerlukan pertolongan dan petunjuk-Mu...

Moga ya Allah...

Kau menetapkan kebaikan...

Di sebalik ujian-Mu yang maha berat ini...

The Ending Was???

31st of July 2010...

A day to be remember...

Suppose to be...

But i wonder...

In a way of what to recall all those thing...

Hmm...

Once upon a time~

I was called as Alfarians...

Somewhere i belong in SASER which no longer exist...

Frankly speaking i was being lucky...

To have such a hectic classmates...

Cool, funny and irritating at sometimes...

Today we all have our own path...

Separated chasing our own goal...

In this life...

But yesterday~

We managed to gather...

As what so called as reunion of our memorable class, Alfa...

What did i feel???

Some kinda nervous and feel awkward...

Due to long time no see...

People might changed...

YEAH or maybe NOT...

Somehow i was enjoy to meet them all...

Even though it was not a complete set...

And not properly planning...

Sorry...

Time ticking so fast~

From suria klcc to andalus...

A kinda new place to me...

Yeah place with shisha...

And "barbarican" (not sure the spelling) bottle

like an alcoholic one...

Somehow i was persuaded to try all those thing...

But i refuse...

Who cares whether it looks cool or not...

Waiting too long for a friend from Mesir...

Chatting and chatting...

Watching football...

Until sharp the first hour of 1st August 2010...

Yeah i need to go back...

Summarize the story...

We lost on the way back...

Pity everyone who in the same car with me...

At last being drop in UM...

Here comes my brother took a friend of mine and i...

Thinking it is already "morning"...

Specific 2.15 a.m...

Spend a night at his room...

Send my friend to his hostel...

Send me to KTM Mid...

At the end i was home without taking bath from yesterday, slumpy face and exhausted...

SLEEP....zzzzzzzz

P/s: A little bit pissed off...Perhaps to myself or someone else...Don't think about the past...My friend said...

My last words:

To Ali Saliman@Arab

- Good luck in ur study and hopefully to see u fly in Japan next year! Jgn lupe bli ak souvenier nnti. Sori kalo buat ko boring.

To Al Amin@Andre

- Don't forget to ask for forgiveness to ur parents before u fly. Bgs ar tuck in baju nmpk smart wlpn skema. InsyaAllah u can excel in medicine! Ak percaya...

To Wan Ali

- Congrats sbb dah fly ke Mesir. Sori mlm 2 x lyn ko sgt. I was exhausted. Later we'll meet again!

To Fadhil

- Congrats gak dpt course biotech. Take care of yourself and behave!

To Qamarul@Wak

- Good luck kat MIAT! Study btul2 elaun dah ar blmbk. Jgn lupe bli sikat rambut!

To Atif@Jawa

- Good luck gak kat ko to achieve what u want to be. Kalo suke Zuraihan tu ckp je la. Haha!

To Haikal

- Wish u all da best dlm course lenges (x tau eja)!!! Sori menyusahkan ko mlm tu. InsyaAllah satu hari nnti ak bls jasa ko tu...haha

To Syahir@Silak

- Hope u be successful in architechture tu. Blaja rjn2 and simpan duit tu ckit jgn nak berasap je. Haha pape nnti kite lepak lagi kat mid ke.

To the rest

- Den, kuman, cacuk, tedi, hazmi, afiq, nabil, firdaus, topi, shitok, keshvin, thinesh, panjaa, ipin......ak doakan korg sume brjaye dlm mengejar cita2 korg. Hopefully we can meet again someday...

Confession

People always said, life is full with colours when there's a changing pace in it. Every day, every night, the phrase keep lingering in my mind. Figuring what does it really means argh, perhaps it is reliable or just another ideology created by philosophers to express their very subjective emotions.

Life is once, so enjoy it to the fullest! Don't be too serious! Another phrase again and again but this one given by people surrounding me. Sometimes it is hard to tell them the truth why we acting such a way. Why? Because it is norm for human to react differently towards what they see. Depending what kind of person they are. That is life to me...

Almost 19 years, i breathe, i sleep at night and wake up in the morning. The routines follow the sequence as it is suppose to be. My journey is keep going on following the path that i've chosen.

Throughout the journey, many things i've had experienced. Maybe i just want to highlight one thing. NEVER WORKING WITH SOMEONE WHO IS/ARE REALLY ..... Almost all the time being asked/forcely need to work together with someone who don't really understand what is the meaning of responsibility, commitment, teamwork, consideration to the others. Just think about themselves.

"Sorry, i fall asleep."
"Sorry i'm tired."
"Later i go ok." (but never come)
What more reasons....

If ur heart says that u don't want to go, fulfill ur responsibility, u will keep giving thousands , even millions of reasons to escape.

Kpd mereka yg turut melaluinya, berbaliklah kpd firman Allah S.W.T ini:

“Sesungguhnya berbahagialah orang yang sabar dan mahu memaafkan, kerana perbuatan semacam itu termasuk perbuatan-perbuatan yang sangat utama.”

(QS. As Syura:43)

P/s: Sesungguhnya kesudahan yg baik adalah untuk org2 yg beriman. InsyaAllah...

~When it comes to made a decision~

Alhamdulillah exam sem 2 baru je lepas dan ak ape lagi melaghakan diri kat umah je la. Online, main game, tgk movie dll (benda2 yg ak x ble buat time exm mode). Seriously, kinda feeling mcm dah abis IB trus. Haha.

Hmm...decision?? Bile dah meningkat dewasa cam ni, you need to make a lot of decisions mainly about yourself on your own. For example, your ambition, your future career. Doctor, Chem engineer and biotechnologist, sume merupakan cita2 yg ak pkirkan mase dulu2. At last doktor yg melekat. Qada' dan qadar.

SPM pun tamat dan slps mendapat result bercambah2 scholarship yg ak apply atas dasar nak je dpt scholarship like my brother. And tanpa memikir pjg ak pun trt apply scholarship yg x berkaitan pun dgn cita2 ak tadi (TNB, Bank Negara). Hah rase cam sengal je bile igtkan blk. Then lastly yg dpt PETRONAS (Chem Eng, UTP) ngan MARA (IB Diploma Programme-Medic, KMB). Tambah plak choice ASASI Sains Hayat kat UM, tmpt abg ak mrgkul kejayaannya meneruskan pengajian dlm bidang medic yg strictly nak 4 flat (Bknnye nak riak or what ,cume alasan ni la abg ak guna nak lobi ak spya blja kat cni). Here comes the part yg memerlukan ak membuat kptsn sekali lagi. Adui pening. Pikir punye pkir, ak memutuskan utk mengambil scholarship MARA tu. Sbbnya parents ak pun insist nak tgk anak die blaja kat oversea sbb abg ak dulu ade la keralatan sedikit. Mskla la ak ke KMB, IB World School!!! (3rd world facilities-bersyukur je). Qada' dan qadar.

Kat KMB, msk sem 2 kena pilih subjek plak. MATHEMATICS HL (very da challenging) or SL (yg x byk beza sgt dgn HL pun). Fuh letih kepala otak ni memikirkan nak pilih mane satu. Dipendekkan cite, dgn menggunakan segala kudrat mentarbiyahkan org supaya amik Math HL, ak plak akhirnya memilih Math SL. Tertemplak diri sendiri plak (kate atong kpd aku).Whatever la. Mgkin ini yg t'baik dan takdir Allah sbb kalo ak amik Math HL aritu ak kena tukar klas which i don't want. Qada' dan qadar.

Pastu benda yg plg ak risau and to be honest x suke iaitu EE (Extended Essay). This is the most challenging part. Ak mmg panik gile bile nak choose whether biologos or malay. Decision again and again. Arghh!!!! Lastly,ak letakkan first choice for malay, sbb rmi skor A for this subject and for biologos average c. Dgn kepanikan thp giga, ak cube mnyiapkan proposal for interview yg ak siapkan sehari sblm dateline. Credit to atong 4 helping me:). Alhamdulillah ak lps interview and i'm being selected. Igtkan lega dah la, tgk2 ckgu2 for this subject cerewet gile and sentiasa ugut nak terminate mane2 pelajar yg x ikut flow planning yg dorg sendiri dah ttpkan. Cthnya, first draft yg spttnya anta bln september kena anta bln julai. This really makes me stressful. Qada' dan qadar. (X lupe kena byr RM150 utk Kem Sastera special for those yg buat EE subjek ni kat Tiara Beach Resort- This one is cool!)

Lastly, smpila ke hari ini, tmt sem 2 dan duk umah menghabiskan cuti 3 minggu. Ade je keja belambak. IB mane pnh tgk org bersenang-lenang. Yg ni ak anggap sbg challenge utk diri ak dan sbg platform melatih diri aku utk bersedia utk hari yg mendatang. But that's not the problem. Problem die kena buat decision la. No comment dah. Kali ni kela choose btul2 country mane yg nak dan target universiti. Ni sume gara2 nak mengoptimumkan placement utk pelajar2 batch 'KITA' yg gedabaknya ramai compared to last batch. Qada' dan qadar. (Still thinking at the moment)

Ape2 pun inilah realiti kehidupan aku dan ak percaya semua manusia lain jgk. Like a proverb said, "The ball is in your court", choose the very best in your life and jgn lupe lastly kena la berserah kepada Yang Maha Berkuasa.

No Boundaries

Lame gile ak x update blog nih...sume gara2 IB (hmwrk itu satu kewajipan tidak kira di mana anda berada mahu pun apa jua situasi anda). AKU DAH MULA MERASAKAN TEKANAN INTERNATIONAL BACCALAUREATE!!!!!!!!!!!

Sejak akhir2 ni, seriously aku x ble blaja...
Dgn homework blmbk+org yg bagi komitmen cam toot (bile buat keja in group)...
Task2 smpingan...
Arghhh!!!!!
THIS IS SEM 2!!!!!
And i'm still terhegeh-hegeh catching up with the syllabus...

Hmmm....
Ape pun bile ak cite kat kwn ak...
Jwpn cliche'...
Jwpn yg ak dah tahu...
I'm exhausted...

Cuti mid-sem...x mcm cuti pon
Konklusinya...hmwrk bertimbun
InsyaAllah akan siap...
Kualitinya...no cmmnt
Dan post ni boring (x de mood nak cite)
Hergh....

One Step Forward, There's No Turning Back...

Here comes...my new post. New sharing and perhaps new thought. There's many things that i want to write it here as i've been through a lot as the time passes. Hmm...

Result for sem 1 pun dah kluar. After all ak hanye ble bersyukur kerna itu adalah ketentuan Allah. Tiap-tiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya dan ak percaya ini adalah ujian utk menjadikan ak seorang yg lebih kuat untuk hari yg mendatang. Yg penting ak x buat parents ak kcwa wlpn i'm not really satisfied with my result. Mgkin itu hasil dari usaha ak sendiri yg ..... Aku redha.

Kehidupan kat KMB kdg2 sedikit byk menguji tahap kesabaran ak. Smpi satu masa, ak rase mcm nafas ak ni sesak dgn pelbagai kerenah org, tuntutan akademik, dan sbginya. Ak hanya diam. Diam membisu mengenang segala apa yg berlaku, apa yg aku lalui. Kdg2 semua benda, semua org aku x puas hati. Mcm2 benda tlh terjadi.

Satu saat, di fikiran aku terlintas. Aku tersalah membuat pilihan? Aku tersalah membuat percaturan? Kalaulah jwpnnya ye pun, mampu ke ak nak menoleh ke blkg. Mengubah segala kesilapan yg ak sendiri lakukan. Ya Allah.

Tapi ak spt manusia2 lain, sering merungut bila musibah menimpa. X pernah plak nak bersyukur segala nikmat yg tlh dikurniakan selama ini. Aku sedar, ak hanya insan yg lemah, hina. Mgkin sbb itu ak kena bljr utk merendahkan diri terhadap org2 di sisi, juga Allah yang Maha Mengasihi. Ya Allah, aku memohon dari-Mu, lindungilah ak dari segala kemungkaran dan berikanlah ak kekuatan utk menghadapi segala ujian yg tlh Engkau sediakan...

Happy New Year!

Welcome home...

First and foremost happy new year 2010!!!
New day
New story
New hope
And everything are new


Pursuing your dream
As you still has the chance
As the new day
Promising a new hope

Like a phrase from wisdom,"Let bygone be bygone"

P/s: Focusing and endeavouring to acquire better achievement in sem 2 to come!