Assalamualaikum...
Hari ni merupakan the first day berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. Sgt teruja dan bersyukur kerana masih diberi kesempatan utk menikmati keindahan di bulan yg penuh kerahmatan ini...Alhamdulillah. Selamat Berpuasa kpd semua umat Islam yg mengenali mahupun yg tidak mengenali!
Life is colourful when there's a border along it...
Perhaps everyone will pondering, figuring why i'm writing this as title. Haha. After being an IB student, i know that actually life is beautiful when we face something that unexpected and we don't really want it to be happen in our life. Yeah, we should be thankful and need to believe that everything occurs for some reasons. A sign from God. Blessing in disguise.
There's been too much things happened to me recently. Yeah things that sometimes hurt my feeling, my friends...At some point, i just think i'm really bad as i always make jokes that irritating to some people. But to be frank, i'm not realise of it and even i don't mean it. I just want to make everyone around me to be happy even i'm not in the state of it. It's okay...
I just want to be friends with everyone...really want. But i can't. I don't know why, maybe i'm too reserve in certain things. Sometimes, i feel i'm too delicate to face all this things. Just really make my tears always to come out. But i know i need to hold it. I need to be strong. Preparing myself for the unexpected things outside there...when i've fly away.
I'm always want to change myself to be someone better...that will make everyone satisfy of me. No more condemn, no more critics that really hurt. Even i'm not the type that like to express all those things. The best way just to keep it. Keep it for myself. I'm feel offended to all my friends...what can i say is just the word sorry. I really appreciate all of you. But this is myself. Who i am. I don't express and show who the really am i except the one that i feel comfortable, understand me. Maybe after this i should change myself...if it is the best. I already tired to think of this. That's the only thing that i can do....the best solution after all.
Sorry to all my frens: Basyir, Hafeez, Asyraf and Abbas for hurting all of your feelings. Even i hate and reluctant to ask for forgiveness to people. Maybe i should be sincere this time and put aside my ego. That's all i can say......
p/s:i hope i can change myself to someone better...yeah better
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